Tonight I can not sleep.
Restless with too many thoughts.
I need to create the space
2010
So another year is nearly over. With wine in my hand and a cool breeze on my cheek it is time to reflect on the year that was. This time in 2009 I had just returned to work, after 4 months off with a back injury. Since then I have healed beyond belief.
In 2010 I have celebrated hundreds of small but meaningful goals. Being able to shower with out crying. Being able to work without having to lie down every hour. Waking and not reaching for pain medication. Travelling to see family and friends for special occasions. But 2010 was not about ‘the back injury’ 2010 was about life- the ups and the downs.
2010 was : finding our first home to buy together. Saving enough money to afford the deposit on said house and then…..surviving the disapointment when the purchase of our first house crumbeled into nothingness.
2010 was the year Brett bought me my dslr camera. The documentation begins now.
2010 was welcoming Max Pascoe into our extended family. The beautiful son of my brother Matthew. And the announcement of a surprise third Melbourne Pascoe. Third children (mostly unplanned) are the best!
2010 the year Kate and Anton got engaged and married. Words can not explain the joy and contentment I got from watching my dearest friend meet a man who melts her heart. To watch this friend marry her dream man made my year. As a woman who has found the happiness of a soulmate I wish this same gift for all my loved ones. When the dream comes true for anyone close to me, my heart swells. When I see my best friend sneak gleeful grins at her husband my heart fills with joy!
2010 The blissful announcement of Nick and Nikki’s baby! I have very few friends I feel as close to as my bestest buddy Nick. Many younger years of poignant silliness has cemented a bond that the years apart can not waiver. For he too to have the love of a best friend as a partner for life makes me unbelievably happy! And for these two beautiful people to announce they are having a baby makes me squeel!!! This 2011 baby has already bought so much joy! There are no words.
2010 The work hurdle and friednships lost that wil never me mended. For lessons learnt and mistakes made that will never be unmade. 2010 you taught me a lot about trust and loss.
2010 was all about Brett and I. My husband is the biggest blessing I have in my life. I could never have imagined I could feel so loved or that I could love so much. This was our year. I love that man with all my heart and I will never ever take for granted his heart.
Farewell and thank you 2010.
